Long time no blog entry, I know: and it's my bad. I missed "spilling my thoughts on the virtual page"!
Ummm...okay...so where to start?
Well lets get the bad news over and done with shall we?
I have been more or less officially diagnosed with Crohns Disease...google it if you want to know what it is in detail (this is a really good site: About Crohns : but essentially it is an auto-immune disease! Yep, that's right ppl: my body is attacking itself (ahh shucks, I knew all that self hate would come out some time lol)... So yes: I think I have had it for quite some time: maybe a year or more: I have just had a flare-up because of all the stress I have been under lately!
And what stress, you may ask?
Well beyond all the side effects that come with this disease, my father decided in his infinte wisedom to apply for parole. All good and well, but I don't want him to get it: I want him to stay were he is: I don't even want the chance that he could approach me or any of my family members...I was just starting to live again and now all this happens: bang! Out of nowhere. To make matters worse, this isn't something that I can take a magic pill or have surgery to fix: I am stuck with it forever: and I don't want to even think about Guy getting out...I just hope the parole board listen to my submission: and realise how much of a monster he really is underneath his apparent normalacy.
Ummmm...it's turning out to be a very, very bad year...
But hopefully, next year things will be better: Justin and I have had a thought, which would be magic if it could happen: it would be nice to have a happy event after this year....I won't say what is quite yet...But we will be hopefully telling everyone at some point in the next months, after which I will announce it here in the "cyber world". I just hope my family doesn't flip out: and understands why we have chosen to do it now and not in a few years the way we had planned (and to be honest I more scared of Justin's parents reaction, not my own family, because as a rule they are very good about supporting my decisions, with a few interjections)! And no, it is not a baby. Ummm...and I better go now, before I spill the beans! lol....
Lots of love to all,
Am missing Melissa, Amy and Chris like crazy :-(