I have a confession to make.
Because my IBS/Crohns (whatever it is: who knows anymore) has settled down in the last few weeks, I have been eating again. A lot. A lot of bad things, if truth be told.
This has meant that since dropping 7 kg to 61 kg during my last flare (in under a month) I suddenly have gained it all back (in under a month), with a little more on top....I have hit the 70 kg + zone: ekkk. I have never, ever gained that much weight that quickly.
To gain some perspective on this, I am 5 ft tall. That is a lot of weight and not a lot of places to put it.
For years, I could eat pretty much what I wanted and not gain a drastic amount of weight (or any at all). Looking back this was all because of crohns/IBS, but it was great at the time...My sweet tooth got fed well.
It doesn't help that the stuff that is stereotypically "bad" for you such as white pasta, bread etc are some of the few foods that I have always found easy on my stomach. Pasta is my comfort food in many ways: I know I can always eat it and not feel sick afterward. Because I have never been one for big portions, it has meant its impact on my waistline has been slight: even with all the current extra weight I am still size 10 to 12 (but definitely in more of the '12' camp).
But lately, I am always hungry and my normal meal sizes have gone out of the window. It is very sad.
However, I am glad that I have some extra weight going on. Least when the Crohns/IBS starts flaring again, I have some weight to lose. And not only that, but it is making me realize how much I love my body and curves (and boy do I have them! Entire DD's ?). I am still working on loving my tummy...that particular piece of property was decimated after the surgery of '08. Nuclear wasteland, anyone?