Zero sperm again.
We are still waiting on the chromosomal test results.
I feel terribly, terribly lonely. Whenever Justin gets news like this, he goes into his own little world, where I can't reach him. We are both such innately independent people - and we deal with things so differently that news like this always tests our relationship. I need closeness, he needs distance. He does come back to me, eventually - but I am so frightened that one day, he won't.
One day at a time.
Adversity is like a strong wind. It tears away from us all but the things that cannot be torn, so that we see ourselves as we really are.
Arthur Golden, Memoirs of a Geisha